So I've never done a true blog post before (I don't think my tumblr counts) and I'm not sure how they work but I want to try anyway. I want to try because I think I need a place to vent, to right down thoughts, to share ideas and things I've learned, and just express myself in a new way.
To begin I'm going with a vent. A vent on work to be specific.
My occupation is a barista at Dutch Bros and don't get me wrong, I love it, But it isn't what I wan't to do for the rest of my life (despite that being an ever imminent possibility, but more on that later). My two greatest loves are music and photography and I don't know If I will ever choose between the two (more than likely I'll just do both). My current focus is photography and it hasn't come without struggles.
To begin I'm going with a vent. A vent on work to be specific.
My occupation is a barista at Dutch Bros and don't get me wrong, I love it, But it isn't what I wan't to do for the rest of my life (despite that being an ever imminent possibility, but more on that later). My two greatest loves are music and photography and I don't know If I will ever choose between the two (more than likely I'll just do both). My current focus is photography and it hasn't come without struggles.
I am the oldest of 6 kids and love every one of my siblings to death. Sometimes though I envy them, because it always seems like their every desire is gift wrapped and given to them immediately. I feel like all I hear about is the newest opportunity they've had, or the cool new toy they just got. I know that it's all a false perception but I cannot seem to shake the feeling. It also isn't helped by the fact that my little brother is also doing photography (and he's honestly better than I am). I always feel like I hit an obstacle at every turn and can never catch a break while he is thriving.
I always try to remind myself that these are all just feelings, that even though I perceive things one way the truth is very different. What isn't perception though is the effort put forth by myself. The battle to somehow "make it" in the artistic community. A battle I plan on winning. A constant source of inspiration for me is the story of the lightbulb, the first one specifically. Thomas Edison tried countless times to create something that had only ever existed in imagination. He tried and he failed so many times that any other man would have given up and forgotten about it. But not Edison, he kept trying, and trying, and trying.